If you haven’t noticed, I’ve been a little absent from social media lately. Like the title of this posts says, I feel like I’m juggling so many hats right now. Wife, mom, hairstylist, blogger, friend, daughter and more. I’ve only been posting on IG sporadically and haven’t blogged in a couple of weeks, snapchats (@ashleysterusky) been my go to since it’s so easy. And honestly this has been sooo stressful. I’m stressed and overwhelmed because I have so many things to do and not enough time in the day to do them. I definitely don’t want to complain, I think it’s a good problem to have but at the same time it’s a lot. On top of still adjusting to being a mama of two, blogging, recently going back to work and managing all of the day to day house stuff, I’ve been hit with some postpartum depression. And it sucks. I thought for sure that I wouldn’t get it this time because I was in such a better place mentally this go around (like not having just been bit by your neighbors dog at 8 months pregnant) but here it is rearing it’s ugly head and I hate it. It makes being busy and stressed that much harder because everything seems so daunting all of a sudden. And some days I’m literally sitting here counting down the hours till Wyatt gets home just so that I have someone to lean on.
I’ve tried getting out and about, working out and eating better and none of its helping so I’m finally breaking down and going to see the doctor. I went through the same thing after I had Harper but I waited waaayyy longer to see someone about it. I had promised myself before Indy that I wouldn’t wait so long this time if it happened again. So here I am, feeling vulnerable and putting it out there. It’s normal and happens to so many women who never bring it up. I can honestly say it’s scary to talk about but it feels so good at the same time to get it out there. So if you’re in the same boat as I am, it’s ok. Talk to a friend, talk to your mom, or go talk to your doctor if that’s what you need and try not to feel bad about it. Wyatt tells me the girls deserve a happy mom and whatever I need to do to get there is what we’re going to do. I’m so thankful that I know he always has my back.
So there it is, be easy on me. Writing this was super hard. And if you’re in the same kind of situation you’re more than welcome to talk to me about it. And know that it does get better. Happy Friday friends.